Loving 2010 already!

I started back to work today, and I am very quickly starting to lose my positive attitude that I tried to start my day with. Noooo, not because I hate my job, but because I want to be at home with my baby girl. I keep looking at the clock thinking to myself what her usual routine is, and wondering what she's doing right about that time. I keep tearing up, and I am very anxious to get off and race home to her. She is in wonderful hands, and I couldn't be more blessed to have such a good caregiver for her, but there is nothing like Mommy and her baby girl. I thought I would be excited for the break, but I'm not. I don't want to be away from her...even when she cries or poops on me. I miss snuggling with Beetle too. I felt horrible leaving her at home today. It's a routine adjustment for her too. Oh geeze- I am crying now!

Mommy sure does miss this smile! I wish I was this happy at 5:00am!!


Mom and Dad are making my lunch today... good thing they live a half a mile from my work! I get some hot homemade lasagna and Italian bread! I can't wait! Its probably best that I have set plans for lunch, otherwise I might find myself driving southbound on 95 to get to my girl!

2010 is already so full of blessings! I don't want to announce it so soon, but I can't help it! Matt has a new job!!! He goes to Baltimore on Wednesday to get all of his DOT work done and to take some tests! Given he passes his background and road tests, he will be able to put in his notice and start a job that will provide for us a little better! He will be driving a fuel tanker, which yes, I am VERY nervous about, but I swear he drives a big truck better than his own vehicle. And I guess if he can make it through the Rockies in a blizzard, he can do anything.

2010 is already full of some firsts! Here is Sutherlynn's first snow storm!!! January 30, 2010.

Here is a pic of her making a nice gift for Daddy!!! She is a mess!

Things learned in 2009

So this is a little late, but better late than never! I guess thats life with a newborn...

1.) My husband gets "Buck Fever" every year starting in September. There is no support group for him. We just accept him the way he is.

2.) Recessions are terrible, but you quickly learn how fun coupons and shopping lists really are. It's almost like a sport!

3.) Sex makes babies?!?

4.) The Mrs. is very hard to shave once you reach the seven month mark.

5.) Life is worth living, and when you start feeling like its not, you should renew your faith in God.

6.) Your sisters are your best friends.... annnd your best friend is too. :o)

7.) The IRS is AMAZINGLY slow when they owe YOU money. I wonder if they are as patient as we have been if we owed THEM money?

8.) Getting married, buying your first home, and having your first baby are all the most stressful, life changing and exciting moments in life. We got to experience all three in a 12-month period. Is that good or bad?

9.) Don't believe anyone you know when they say they can help you get a job, or if they have a job opening... chances are- its not true.

10.) Family and money DO NOT mix well. I don't have much more to say about that.

11.) Always remember who you were, where you come from, and who helped you grow along the way. Looking back at these things will center you and create a humble being within yourself.

12.) Don't wear two faces. If you want to be a bitch, be a bitch all the time. If you are a nice person, be a nice person all the time. That way people aren't left confused. Everyone has a bad day, but the Jekyl and Hyde act doesn't work when practiced repeatedly.

13.) A drunk man's words are a sober man's thoughts. Not much more I want to say about that either.

14.) It's okay to take a nap while breast feeding.

15.) Looking into your baby girl's eyes and seeing that smile makes all the pain and weariness disappear, and having a baby to hold makes you fall in love with your best friend all over again.

2010 is going to be a great year. I can't wait to see what's in store for us. I might not have money, but I have it all in my arms. Mommy loves you Sutherlynn Grace Pearce.

It's been a while

Wow. Had to take a small break after the arrival of Princess Pearce. We are adjusting at home, and I am enjoying my time off to be with her. So, here are the details:

On December 26th we were blessed with a healthy delivery of a 7lb, 12oz., 19" long baby girl. I had to be induced, but it all worked out in the end. I was in labor for about 8 hours, and pushed for about 45 minutes. It was much easier than I thought it ever would be. Breast feeding is coming along quite well, and I am loving the cloth diapers so far. If I could just get her evening schedule in line, we will be set. I was blessed with an infant that had her days and nights mixed up! But things are working out.

The medical bills have starting pouring in, and every day I am scared to see the mail lady pull up to our box! Soooo, we'll be in a little medical debt for a while. I think I'd rather have a new car, but I wouldn't trade my baby girl for the world, even when she poops on me. :o)

It's nice to finally bid farewell to 2009, and as we start the new year, it just gets better and better. Big things are coming, and I'll keep you posted! :o)

A Snowy Update

All last week all we heard about was snow, snow, snow. As with everytime the weatherman says that one letter word, we were very reluctant to believe him. This time, he was right though, and we got dumped on- almost 20". My due date was coincidentally Friday, December 18th. I went to town to help my parents pick and cut their Christmas tree. I was trying to stay on my feet and be as active as I could in hopes of getting things 'started'. At around 7:00pm the snow started falling, and since it was coming from the south I knew I'd better get home, since I'd be driving right into it. By 9:00, I was finally safely home. It was the longest, most stressful drive I've ever made. So many cars were sliding into ditches and into each other. By the time I reached my neighborhood, there was an easy 4"-6" on the ground. I got in the house, took a hot shower and had some hot tea. By then, I was praying I wouldn't go into labor, I couldn't fathom going out on the roads again. We went to bed, and at 2:00am, I woke up with contractions. Oh boy. I tossed and turned until about 4:30 and I couldn't stand it anymore, so I got up. I accidentally woke Matt up in the process, and he was sweet enough to get up with me. He went outside to clean the truck and make a path, just in case. By 7:00, the contractions were getting painful, and were about 8 minutes apart. So I took another shower to start getting dressed, because I knew I needed to allow plenty of time for travel. The hot shower completely stopped the contractions though. I didn't know if I was happy or mad about that. Soooo, I made it through another weekend, and I am still pregnant. Ugh. Hopefully this afternoon's appointment will have some news. Right now, I am at work, and they are kicking me out because they decided to close the office.... hmmm, but I'm already here!?! Oh well, guess I'll go find something to do until this afternoon!   

Miserable

I am documenting today because I want to forget it and never forget it all at the same time. I feel miserable. It hurts to sit, it hurts to stand, it hurts to walk, it hurts to lay... miserable. I went to the Doctor yesterday, and I am still at 2cm. No progress, just miserable. I was awake every hour last night, completely angry because I didn't want to watch t.v., I didn't want to read, I didn't want to do anything but lay there and be mad. And the same feeling carries on today. I have gained 3 more pounds in the last week, and I feel every single ounce of it with every move I make. Its official.... 9 months of pregnancy is just too long. Still praying, still hoping, and yes- I know it will be worth it when she arrives. Ba-hum-bug for now...

Ring the Alarm

So, yesterday when I got up to get dressed for work my water broke... or so I thought... or maybe yet it did. Yes, there is no doubt I lost some amniotic fluid. So, I got up, went to the bathroom, and calmly sat back on the bed and called my husband (who of course didnt answer- we knew this was going to happen), my sister, and the doctor. I took my time, spent 3 hours at home dressing myself, putting the finishing touches on packing my bag and giving Miss Millie some goodbye loves. By that time, Matt called me back, went back to work, got his truck and made it back home. We left and went to MWH Labor and Delivery. They quickly took me back, got me undressed and on to the bed where they checked my progress and swabbed me for any remaining amniotic fluid... and a big fat NEGATIVE came back. I was mortified because I bet that nurse thought I was nuts. But she nicely explained to me that its a possibility that the baby's head sealed the leak (my water didnt actually break- just a leak) and that if I cleaned up prior to coming to the hospital (which I did) that it was very likely for the swab to come back inconclusive. She had me lay there for a while in the event I leaked some more, and she would recheck me. After an hour, and still no progress, she sent me home. I was upset, disappointed, and just very down. Matt and I headed home and took a nap for a while, then headed back to town for a 4:00 appointment with my OB/GYN. She checked me with a speculum, and admitted there was some moisture and I am now almost 2cm, and oddly enough I had low blood pressure (usually it would be high around this time). She agreed with the L&D Nurse that the baby's head likely sealed off any leak, and I didn't lose enough amniotic to warrant being induced, so she sent me home for business as usual. 

You can bet I had one confused little pupster when we got home. She knows that we aren't coming home when we walk out the door with our luggage in tow. We came and went 3 times yesterday, and she had a fit each time. Definately a big break in her routine. But here I am, back to business as usual, no baby yet, still wondering when the big birthday is coming. Seemingly yesterday's big deal had to be some progress... just not enough to make Mommy happy.  

P.S.- I FOUND OUR CAMERA! WOOHOO!!

Not much new except boohoohoo...

There isn't any big news to post this week. I feel like a waddling hippopotamus these days. Sutherlynn has made her way south, making it very difficult to walk like a normal person. I am hoping the big day will come soon, I am very anxious to meet her now. Well.... that, and I am tired of moving in slow motion and having to pee every 5 minutes. I even took a break from the stilettos today. I woke up this morning with a fresh new IDGAS attitude, and decided to sport a velour lounge suit and tennis shoes. This is completely new territory for me, even my co-workers are looking at me like I have a third eyeball. But the break is kind of nice, and I am very comfortable today. And let's not forget that at SDI, Thursday means Friday, so bring on the casual! 


This week has been pretty busy at work, which has been very rare and unusual over the past year or so. I won't complain though, its helping to take my mind off of other things that have pretty much CONSUMED me lately. I almost forgot what it felt like to sit at my desk and hammer away at site planning for 9 hours a day. I had to stop a few times to try to remember some command prompts that I haven't used in over a year! Monday morning, I walked in to a putrid smell of mildew. Apparently the hot water heater busted over the long Thanksgiving weekend, and the entire office was flooded. Needless to say, the smell made me ill, and I ended up leaving at 1:00 with a terrible headache and sinuses that were on fire... AFTER, of course I stayed to finish my goals for the day. (*Insert pat on my back here*). It still smells in here, and yes I have a headache, but I am going to have to grin and bear it. Especially since I have learned that SDI is not going to pay me for being ill over hazardous conditions on their behalf. And to think I stayed and worked through my lunchbreak on Monday as a courtesy to them. Hhmph. Oh, wait, did that sound bitter? I just hate being taken advantage of. That's all.


The stockings are hung and the tree is up, and not a single present to go under it. This is going to be a sparse Christmas this year, but I have so much to look forward to I cannot let it get me down. But I won't lie, I have cried and cried and cried over Christmas this year, and its only the 3rd of December. I want so badly to shower my husband, my neice and nephews with all things Santa, and I just can't. Its a real feeling of failure. Matt and I are continuing to take it day by day. With a little prayer, and alot of love, we'll get through this December just fine. And I am going to take this time now to thank God for my sisters. Aside from Matt, they are my rock walls, and I know that at any hour of the day all I have to do is pick up the phone. I love you girls. :o)


Here are some pics of Skylar and Hunter all gussied up. Agh, how I LOVE these kids!

So that's it. Hopefully there will be some exciting news very soon. I'll keep you posted!